Category: General

Yippee! I found one of the mystery readers. Thanks for letting me know that you have been visiting, Sherry! I really enjoyed her site – SherLonKah. Sherry – do you live in Killeen or Copperas Cove? I lived in Killeen for 3 months back in 1990, right after I was married, before we left for Germany. So long ago… I remember those weekend trips between Killeen & Houston while I was here working and the ex was there in the Army. Best of luck to the three of you on your future together!

Ok, so who else is out there reading?

Wh4t’5 your h4nd13?: from this day forward I will be known to the elite as: Mighty Matrix.

Kaycee will be missed by so many. Reading her writing was always a great joy, and with all that has gone on this week with me, it once again put matters into perspective. I thank God daily that I have the life that I have. To Debbie and the rest of her family, my most sincere condolences. I am glad they are leaving her site up, I will be back to read it again – when I need a smile, a bit of sunshine, and some perspective.

I can see clearly now the rain is gone, I can see all obstacles in my way…

Yes, it is as late as the time stamp says. I felt miserable earlier, so I slept for the most part from 6:30 to 11pm. I watched ER from tonight a little bit ago, now I am watching Friends from tonight. ER was awesome. Why do they have to have a break? Why can’t shows run all year? Because now I *have* to know what happened. And I have to wait until when, September? Friends is pretty good too, only halfway through.

Loved the post at What a Woman about the Assboss. I was laughing so hard. Wonder if she works for an attorney – that sounds like something that would have happened at the law firm I used to work at. Then I visited Kottke.org and Jason has visited the Eiffel Tower. Sigh, I want to be rich enough to go back to Europe. I loved it. He is right – some things surprise you that they are so amazing in real life.

I took some time earlier to check out my site’s logfiles. Lots of people come from, well, nowhere. I mean I have a lot more visitors then I do links to account for them. Hello? Who’s out there? It always makes me curious when I see that. Post a comment or something – I would love to know who you are. The other thing that caught my eye – someone back at the old office is reading this. I can tell because I can see the hit coming from their address. 3:07 pm on the 17th. Interesting. I didn’t think anyone left knew about the site. Well, maybe … I guess it could be … hmmm. Well, hey, if you want me to know who you are send me an e-mail and let me know. Or maybe it is management waiting for me to say something bad? Nope, won’t happen. In spite of my fleeting moments of negative thoughts, I believed in the company up until that final meeting with the boss. I went in to work that morning in the same great, very pumped & motivated mood I had been in all week. Heck, I had gotten a lot done in the 40 minutes I was there before they let me go. I hope someday they find someone with my skill set and loyalty to rebuild the sales team with, but I don’t think I am that easy to replace. I watched many others come & go in the same position while I was there. Oh well, I loved my job. I loved the company, although my spirit had definately been tried and pushed to near breaking limits. I missed it this morning when I woke up – and I am sure I will for awhile. So… while the negative thoughts obviously pass through my mind, as they would anyone who had been laid off by a company that felt like home in so many ways, they won’t end up here.

Ugh, after sleeping from 6:30 to 11pm (off & on) now I am wide awake. Bah.

I am hungry, for food that you can really chew. But when I think about it – I am really not hungry. It’s just that I am stuck doing this prep thing for the IVP kidney test I have to have tomorrow, and I am on a clear liquid diet for 24 hours. Blah. No food since 3pm today (I cheated, I was supposed to start at 1pm – oops) And I wish someone could tell me why my instructions say, “Clear Liquids include … all of the following that are NOT colored red or purple: Gatorade, carbonated and non-carbonated soft drinks, Kool-Aid, plain Jello and ice Popsicles.” Of course I was all set on Sugar-Free Cherry Kool-aid and some red Jello before I read that. Fortunately I had some Sugar-Free Lemonade here to drink instead. Unfortunately, no other jello. I just don’t understand why it can’t be red or purple.

I was cool with the job situation when I went to bed last night. I woke up this morning in a very grumpy mood. I guess it all goes in cycles, huh? I have been tapping into every resource I have at my disposal though already, but I want to get through this kidney stone stuff before I start lining up interviews. Wouldn’t be a good thing to have to cancel. I have some things in mind though that could work really well and I could be very happy doing – just have to work out some of the details. We’ll see how it all turns out.

Was going to try to stop by & see the former Sava gang (and a few of the ones left) tomorrow at noon (they are having lunch, but I can’t eat before the test), but realized tonight that I have to do the last part of this prep 1 hour before my test – and I have to be at the test at 1pm. Also, RoadRunner is coming out between 8am and 1pm to fix my cable modem – so I have to stay close to home. My luck they will come while I am taking Jason to school. Augh! Lets hope not – I can’t handle this slow dial-up access. And I keep forgetting to forward the phone to the cell phone before I get online.

Many thanks to Naomi, Julie, Sabby, Kymberlie and everyone else for your support through all of this. It really helps, considering all that is going on. Julie – congratulations again on getting Greymatter up & running! You will *love* Seattle – it is one of my favorite places. Let me know if it rains while you are there – it has never rained when I have been there except for a light mist the day I leave – I think they just tell everyone it rains a lot to keep us from all moving there. Naomi – if I had not had you to listen to me for the past few months I don’t know how I would have made it. When I am rich I will pay you for all of the free therapy. When things get you down, just remember Bunny Does it Better … that makes any woman smile. Kymberlie – thanks for having lunch with me yesterday to celebrate. I needed that. And thank you too for all the times you have been there to hear me rant. I love my sassy fixed hairdo – glad you were willing to wait for me to have her cut it. Sabby – you always manage to make me smile – and somedays that is the best treat of all. The rest of you… I adore you. Thanks.