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The events of yesterday not only made me worry about Jason, but also about myself. I haven’t been exercising as I should, I haven’t really been watching what I eat – and I am paying the price. Like I said last week, I did these things for a reason – I needed to learn to like ME for who I am, what I am, and so forth – not the mental image that the Insignificant Other had of me, no longer feeling like I had to force myself to do things for him. It was a self-validation issue I guess. I just didn’t want to have to worry about it. So I didn’t. I am paying the price now, and what happened with Jason yesterday made me stop and look at how I have felt lately. I am sluggish & tired all the time. I just want to sit and veg. I keep getting headaches – sometimes migraines, and on the other days just bad headaches. (They are different, if you have had migraines you will know what I mean.) All of which are symptoms of being diabetic. Sure, they are symptoms of other things too, but I have been dealing with yo-yo blood sugar issues lately. I have been hypoglycemic for years, so I know “the feeling” all too well. And it’s been getting worse, back to how I felt when I was pregnant and gestational diabetic. So, I have to do something about it. I have to give in. Difference is, I am doing it for me, and no one else. I am however going to set up a blog, separate from this one but within the domain, to track my progress. I need accountability, and since you guys aren’t about to meet me at the gym to work out with me, I can at least know that someone might read it and see when I am being a slacker. I am drinking my sugar-free Lemonaide right now instead of Pepsi … that’s a start! More to come…

I love to read not martha. Just thought I should share that thought. Other than the soap making gig, I am very NotMartha-ish.

Got up bright and early and checked Jason’s blood sugar again. It was 93, which is within decent range for normal. After thinking about it & talking with my mom more about it, it seems that when he ate “Smarties” yesterday afternoon – can we say pure sugar??? At first she thought it was just 5 minutes or so before they tested him, so I thought there was no way it was in his system that fast. The more we talked about it though, it was probably closer to 15 or 20 minutes later, and it would make sense that his blood sugar would have spiked so high by then. Thanks, Mom, for scaring me like that… So I decided to monitor it more at home and take him to the doctor if there is a pattern of it being high. So far everything looks normal though, and I hate to subject him to a bunch of tests if all this was was a false alarm thanks to a package of “Smarties”.

Hmmm, well. We took Jason’s blood sugar again 2 hours after dinner – and it was 100. That’s a good sign. I am wondering if he had some candy or something towards the end of the school day that we didn’t know about when we tested him earlier. I am still taking him to the doctor in the morning – better safe then sorry. I’ll post more about it later.

Jason has had problems paying attention at school this year, especially in his afternoon classes. It’s really been an issue, more than ever before. Then, Saturday, while we were working on his Aztec village he was constantly thirsty – and I have noticed this before, that sometimes he drinks a lot of fluids. Today my mom & her friend decided to check his blood sugar. He had not eaten since lunch, 3 hours earlier … and it was 297. TWO HUNDRED AND NINETY-SEVEN. Whoa. Not a good thing. The ranges are supposed to be: Fasting: 105 mg/dl – 80 mg/dl, 1 hour after a meal: 190 mg/dl – 120 mg/dl, 2 hours after a meal: 165 mg/dl – 105 mg/dl, 3 hours after a meal: 145 mg/dl – 90mg/dl. Ugh. We have an appointment with the pediatrician at 9:30am. I hope & pray he isn’t diabetic (Insulin-dependent diabetes develops most often in children) but considering all of the signs seem to point in that direction I am scared that he is… Ugh. More links to info: Diabetes Mellitus, Type 1 and How Type 1 is Diagnosed.