Today’s Horrorscope: You will experience a success, even if you are not trying to succeed. Reserve your time for people who mean a lot to you. Self-indulgent behavior is especially sweet. This could very well be because you have been neglecting your own needs lately, and even if you are trying to be noble and selfless, you still need to care for your body, mind and soul. So rather than deny yourself, consider a change in attitude: Take care of yourself simply so you can take care of others. The process is quite easy.
I woke up this morning and realized that the IO’s sudden psychotic behavior on Tuesday was really eating at me. So I called him. At least he spoke to me sanely, for the most part. He still said a few hypocritical things, as usual, but that doesn’t surprise me. NOOOOO – I was *not* trying to reconcile with him. No need to panic and send the men with the white coats over. It was just really bugging me the mean things that he said – which he of course didn’t apologize for. I didn’t talk to him that long. I felt better for calling after I got off the phone, even without his apology. I didn’t need that. I just needed to say what I had to say – and I got that off my chest. Now I am going to work on some design projects I have in the works and then “self-indulge” myself. I have housework I want to do. Jason & I need to go shopping. I am going to go to the gym for a long workout. I am going to take care of my body, mind and soul. I am going to color my hair later, get rid of the gray. I am going to clean out my closet – I was going to go shopping first, but want to see what I have to work with. I need more summer clothes. I need to shopping for Jason too, his First Communion is next Saturday and he needs some nice pants.
Off for a busy day. I feel a lot better now then I did when I first woke up, and I feel like there is a bright beautiful future ahead of me as I walk away (again) from a dreary past. I have felt a lot more “peaceful” the past few days. Like a weight has been lifted off of me. Off to work on all sorts of fun things! It’s a brand new day… it’s up to me what I make of it.