More About Yesterday…

The events of yesterday not only made me worry about Jason, but also about myself. I haven’t been exercising as I should, I haven’t really been watching what I eat – and I am paying the price. Like I said last week, I did these things for a reason – I needed to learn to like ME for who I am, what I am, and so forth – not the mental image that the Insignificant Other had of me, no longer feeling like I had to force myself to do things for him. It was a self-validation issue I guess. I just didn’t want to have to worry about it. So I didn’t. I am paying the price now, and what happened with Jason yesterday made me stop and look at how I have felt lately. I am sluggish & tired all the time. I just want to sit and veg. I keep getting headaches – sometimes migraines, and on the other days just bad headaches. (They are different, if you have had migraines you will know what I mean.) All of which are symptoms of being diabetic. Sure, they are symptoms of other things too, but I have been dealing with yo-yo blood sugar issues lately. I have been hypoglycemic for years, so I know “the feeling” all too well. And it’s been getting worse, back to how I felt when I was pregnant and gestational diabetic. So, I have to do something about it. I have to give in. Difference is, I am doing it for me, and no one else. I am however going to set up a blog, separate from this one but within the domain, to track my progress. I need accountability, and since you guys aren’t about to meet me at the gym to work out with me, I can at least know that someone might read it and see when I am being a slacker. I am drinking my sugar-free Lemonaide right now instead of Pepsi … that’s a start! More to come…