Our Christmas Eve and Christmas Day at my parent’s house turned out to be quite wonderful. So good, we decided to stay over there on Christmas night too so that Mike would be on “my side” of town and we could hit Fry’s early on Friday morning. We played LOTR Trivial Pursuit with Jason on Christmas Day (“Santa” brought it for him) and he almost beat Mike & me! It was a really nice day for everyone.
Thursday night my Mom got a phone call from one of my aunts. My Grandmother had had a stroke on Christmas Day. (They think that she had one previously earlier in the month, but the nursing home said she didn’t.) My Mom talked with my other aunt that lives there in North Dakota to get more details.
Friday morning my Mom received word that my Grandmother had passed away at 5:30 am. It’s hard to explain and it may sound really strange, but it’s almost a relief – she had Alzheimers, and she has been a shell of her former self for many years. The last time I visited North Dakota, she was not able to really talk other than a few phrases that she used to frequently use. She hasn’t “known” me or Jason for years. I made my peace with it years ago – but as anyone who has dealt with Alzheimers first hand will probably say – it’s like watching someone that you love die, even though their physical being is left behind.
I know she is in a better place. I am at peace with that.
The end result is that I’ve felt very introspective for the past few days, and it will probably continue for awhile. I have family obligations to take care of, a son to spend time with, and a household that needs some attention too. My online time will be very limited over the next few days or weeks. If you need to reach me and you have my phone number – feel free to call. I’m not sure how often I’ll even be checking my e-mail. Sort of a hiatus from electronics – I just need some digital down time. I’m sure it all makes sense – I just need to regroup, refocus, and find some inner peace that I’ve lost somewhere along the way in the past few months.
Thank you, thank you, thank you again to everyone for your support – I truly appreciate it more than I can express with words, and it is warming and touching to sense the sheltering warmth that I know surrounds me, both with my friends here in Houston and around the globe.
May you find peace ahead in 2004…