Author: Christine

Is being paranoid part of being an adult? I mean, is it just me? Have you ever had one of those days where you just feel like people are talking about you behind your back? When did this happen? I wasn’t this skeptical of people when I was growing up. I wasn’t like this 10 years ago. Now I look at people some days and just wonder what their ulterior motive is; what it is that they are out to gain by their actions. Not everyone, but some people. It is all amplified in the web world. Maybe I’ve just seen too many people get screwed over and stabbed in the back. I don’t know. Maybe it really is just me. Either way, this feeling sucks. Mean people suck.

I woke up on the proverbial wrong side of the bed this morning. I didn’t mean to, obviously. This whole paranoid issue came up and got me thinking, and I couldn’t sleep. I tossed and turned. I must pull myself out of this funk. I can’t stand being in a funk like this – I would much rather be happy. I’m a paranoid optimist – I can’t handle being a paranoid pessimist. So to help defunktify myself, here are some positive things for me to focus on:

:: It is a nice, sunny day outside. Little white puffball clouds. The downtown skyline is shimmering from within.
:: My workout plan is showing. I have lost 2″ already. Ok, 2″ isn’t much in the grand scheme of things, but it’s better than nothing. More importantly, I can see the results and feel it in how my clothes fit.
:: My Cirque du Soleil CD, Allegria, is on. I love the music. Soothing.
:: My first roll of film from the Kiev 35A will be ready to be picked up today. I can’t wait to see how the pictures turned out!
:: I have wonderful family and friends that I know love me. (Even in my most paranoid of moments.)
:: Jason said this morning that he is feeling better – a lot better than he has felt since June 8. Yes, he’s been battling this tummy crud for a week and a half, and it was good news to hear he was feeling better.
:: You guys amused me and really made me happy with the 100+ comments on the Mission: Comments post. Sometimes it’s the little things in life.
:: Ste’s comment on that thread prompted me to e-mail him and tell him of my “Commenter Blogroll” wish. Within hours, I had code to put in to place and it works perfectly.
:: I found some really good new reads. I had no idea that some of you were blurking here – I’m glad you came out and said hi. Don’t be shy – feel free to speak up any time.
:: Mike. Mike rocks, and I don’t tell him often enough. Mike? You ROCK. *mwuah!*
:: Speaking of Mike, the Lager Rhythms will be performing for public consumption on Saturday night. You can come hang out with all of us at Anderson Fair for good times. I’ll post the full details later or you can read them at the H-Town blogs site.
:: As for the H-Town bloggers, I’m considering trying to get them together for the 4th of July. Who’s game? Fireworks in downtown, day in the park!

You know what? That really does help make me feel better. What are some of the positive things that make you smile? Feel free to share, I could use the lift.