I am really glad that the semester has started. I’m enjoying all of my classes so far. I had a moment of panic yesterday at the beginning of my Chem II class, as she talked about how it will be harder than Chem I was – I started to wonder what on earth I was doing. Who am I kidding, thinking I’m smart enough to do this? I’ve got a ton of science classes ahead of me, am I really that smart?
Then she started the lecture, and I was the only person answering the questions she was asking. I’m sure other people knew the material – for example, my lab partner from last semester. I’m sure she knew it. (She is taking the class with me, which is great because she rocks and we work well together.) But I was the one answering the stuff. And I was one of only two students selected to take the class as an Honors class. Because I am smart. I can do this. I may be 18+ years older than a lot of them, but you know what? That is ok. I’m smart, and that is what matters.
(I had to write all that so when I have that same panic attack feeling again I can remind myself that I can do it.)
But let me let you in on a secret. This stuff is EXHAUSTING. The first week is especially hard, after having a five week break. I’m so tired, I just want to curl up and go to sleep for a day or two! But I have a chapter to read in my photography book, a chapter to read in my Chemistry book, and a chapter to read in my Biology book. (And hopefully I can finally get my copy of my Trig book.) Thank goodness I have the whole weekend to do it! Tonight, I’m taking a bit of a knitting break!
The photograph at the top of this post is the Lady Eleanor shawl (stole?) from the Scarf Style book. It is being knit in Noro Silk Garden color #39, and I had to use size 6 needles to get the gauge that I liked. Not too holey, not too tight. I was afraid it would be too narrow, so I added an extra block to the first tier to make it a little wider. I need to hurry and finish this, all of my classrooms are freezing cold! First I must finish Jenn’s long overdue baby blanket – the end is in sight! I have also started on my Jaywalker socks, but they are my tote-along project for right now. It is handy to have something small that I can knit during the short 10-15 minute breaks I sometimes get between classes.