I got a delightful surprise last night. Catherine called. It was so wonderful to talk to her on the phone (yeah, and talk I did…) While we were talking about relationships and so forth I realized something. Right now is the first time ever, probably since I was 15 and went on my first date, that I am not in a relationship or desperately looking for a relationship. I learned a few years ago that I didn’t *need* to be in a relationship, but I still was at the time so it didn’t matter. When we broke up he was always convinced that I was immediately searching for the next man. I wasn’t. Yes, I did look – but it wasn’t something I *had* to find. I was very lighthearted and picky about it – and I didn’t date anyone. For the past 6 months or so I haven’t even really bothered to look at all. I am happy with my life as it is at this moment. Do I want it to be like this forever? No. But for the time being I am enjoying the fact that I am not relying on any relationship to make me feel better about myself. I feel great about me – right now, just single. And I think in the long run it will make me a much better person the next time I am in a relationship. I will be stronger now that I have proved to myself that I can stand on my own. I can do it. I like me for *who I am* – and a man does not need to be part of that “package” of me.
Thank you for the call last night, Catherine. I truly enjoyed talking to you and we will have to do it again soon.