Christine is an Avenger of Sexiness. Her Superpower is helping Hot Mamas grow their Confidence by rediscovering their Beauty. She lives in the Heights in Houston, Texas, works as a boudoir photographer, and writes about running a Business of Awesome. In her spare time, she loves to knit, especially when she travels. She & her husband Mike have a food blog at Spoon & Knife.
Weeks ago, I won a Lomo for dirt cheap over on eBay, and it has taken forever to get here from the Ukraine, but it has finally arrived! Now I’ll have to go get film at lunch and go out snapping before the thunderstorms begin this afternoon. Any suggestions, tips or tricks you want to share – I would love to hear them!
A few months ago I read somewhere (probably on Anil Dash’s site) that the New York MTA was doing away with subway tokens. I’ve always wanted to visit NYC, and it made me sad to think that by the time I finally got there, tokens would be a thing of the past. A shout for help to Andrea and she promised to send me two tokens – one for me and one for Jason.
She mailed them back in May, but I have been so busy I keep forgetting to check my post office box. This morning I wanted to drop off my check to my insurance agent, and the post office is just around the corner, so I finally stopped. Not only did she send me a regular token, she sent me this really cool set of tokens with coins from 1953, 1970, 1980, 1986 and 1995. It rocks! I’m so giddy I can’t even put in to words how much this excites me – I love it! Thank you *so* much, Andrea! I truly appreciate it.
I talked earlier today about my energy level. I have so many things I want to do, and there never seems to be enough time to do it all. Tonight as I read a few of my favorite creative blogs, I realized one of the main issues that is bothering me.
I have bottled up creative energy that I’m not allowing to flow.
I started to figure it out last night, as I read one of my “Back in Time” posts from 2002. I’ve seen it before in my own writing, but never really figured it out until now. My writing lately sucks. Ok, maybe it doesn’t suck, but it has been seriously lacking. Reading through my old writing, I sense the void in my writing of the past several months.
I’ve said many times in the past 6 months that I want to change. I keep saying that things will be changing around here, and yet they never do. Some of that ties in to the fact that with my job now, I don’t have the time online (or the energy to be online) that I used to have.
Mike is also a factor in all of this. He is wonderful, and I’m glad he has a blog too. He can share in the online aspect of my world. However, a year ago my blog was my outlet. My place to vent, my place to rant, my place to share. Now I share a lot of items with him that I say I am going to blog about later, but I never get around to writing about it.
I miss writing like that. I miss pouring out my thoughts in to words. Now that I recognize these things, I can try to work on it. It may not be every day, but more than the present. That would make me happy.
I have also said for some time that I blog for myself, not for anyone else. I used to write whatever I wanted to about my feelings. Now? I had a moment last night when I was watching TV and thought about something I wanted to blog about. I knew it was potentially a topic that could explode in to a flame war on me though – and I told Mike about it and that I wouldn’t write about it. Today I realized how frustrating that is. I want to write what I think and what I feel. I care about the people reading my site, but I don’t care enough to sacrafice my feelings.
Add on top of my desire to write the fact that I want to take better photographs and all of the other projects I want to finish, and I have a lot to do. But I can do it. Knowing what I need to do is the biggest step, and while the fluff posts will still exist, expect things to turn around here from time to time. I have a lot inside still that I want to share.
There are Blogathon posts all over the web lately, but I wanted to make sure to point out a wonderfully, worthy cause – United Teen Equality Center : Young Women’s Project. If you haven’t read on Erika’s site already about the project, take a moment to check it out. They are creating a magazine for young women: “Goddess is a real magazine, by real girls, for real girls, to empower them to have a voice, and make their diverse voices heard — because every girl is a goddess.”
The time, effort and love that will go in to this project makes it worth every penny they can raise. If you can, help. And spread the word… these girls need your support.
It’s odd. Between the chaos of last week and then being away from televisions and computers all weekend, I feel out of it. The only news I’ve seen or heard in days is that Barry White died. Being an information junkie normally, this is surreal in a way. I’ve read maybe 5 blogs since I got home yesterday. Last night it was a matter of no energy, but I’m finding today it’s a matter of something completely different. I have so many things on my plate to do right now, and they are falling in to place as far as their levels of priority. Jason will be gone until Sunday, and I have housework things I want to do before he returns. I need to go to the gym. I’ve got friends that I want to catch up with. I want to go places, I want to do things. I want to move. I want to mark things off of my to do list.
I can’t sit and focus on things right now. Steady movement is essential. The energy feels good, and I’m thankful for it. If I seem to be scarce, you now know why.