We didn’t stay out too late last night at EJ & Sherry’s Halloween party. A fantastic time was had by all, as was expected. It’s nice to be able to spend some down time chillin’ with your friends. My costume was a big hit, and comfy too because I was basically in pajamas!
The rest of the weekend has been filled with getting ready for a garage sale later this week. I’ve been cleaning out closets, drawers, cabinets, everything! I am finally selling Jason’s crib – he’s 11 now, and I don’t think I’ll be having another baby any time soon. If I do – well, I’ll just have to get a new crib! I’m also parting with some of his last baby clothes. *sigh* It’s hard to let go of those things. But if I keep everything, I’ll end up buried by stuff.
Cleaning out and purging your belongs is really an interesting experience. First I have to evaluate the item. “Do I use this? Have I used it in years? Do I love it?” When it comes to clothes, I decided to keep some items that are in great condition, but a size too small right now. But I didn’t keep everything. I had to ask myself, “If it fit right now, would I wear it? A lot?” It took a second run through on clothes I thought I should keep, but I think I have most of them weeded out now, and there is a lot more space in my closet.
The hardest part is the memories. I’m facing memories that I have packed away for one reason or another. Things like Jason’s baby items have been packed away because it’s hard to give up your child’s youth. Other items, like my old clothes, have been packed away because of the memories that they hold that would otherwise haunt me. “I bought this dress to wear to that wedding…” or “I wore this dress the first time I went to…” I have no idea why I used to remember everything I wore to every event. I don’t do this anymore. But I used to – and moving out these clothes means getting rid of those memories once and for all. That’s not easy for me, but it is very necessary.
Sometimes memories can follow you around. Holding on to them doesn’t allow your old dreams to die – instead they just linger, causing clutter, filling up the space where your new dreams should be allowed to grow and flourish.
I keep trying to purge myself of my past. I am no longer the person I was 10 years ago, 5 years ago, or even 1 year ago. Cleaning out all of this clutter is the only tangible option I have. As hard and heartbreaking as it can be at times, it is a good thing and I know it is for the best. As I crawl in to bed tonight with sore, aching muscles but definitely not on a catabolic state – I will know it was worth it. Speaking of my aching muscles, the day after, I went to a Chiropractic adjustments service on my back muscle pains. If you have experiences about back pains or any muscle pains. You can search through your internet — chiropractic treatment near me.